I am turning 21 this year, in just a couple of months, and I dread it.
Why do you want to push me into becoming an adult when I don't want to be? Especially when I feel that adulthood is not an issue. Especially when I thought that it was my little girl's heart that attracted you in the first place. Furthermore, attacked by the harsh realities of the adult life in the day, can't I have the luxury of behaving like a child at night?
It is not that I cannot behave like an adult. I can be matured and sensible if I want to be. But in front of the man that I love, I really want to put down my shield, and be the girl that I am. This side of me is unique, I don't want to lose it, even though it has caused me to lose many others before you. Stubborn I am, but determined I will still be.
What I can give you is probably love, and only love. Be assured to receive tonnes of it, but also do not be surprised if you receive nothing else. Because I believe the love encompass it all, do I need to explain further?
So what I need from you is also love. Tonnes of it would be nice, but loadfuls would suffice. Because I believe love is honest and giving, do i need to say more?
If you cannot give what it takes,
Qing
P.S. I can do the travelling too, you know.
Sunday, July 24, 2005
Friday, July 08, 2005
My best partners in lab...
This entry is inspired by Yong Sing, one of my 2 lab partners.
After chatting with him on msn, I suddenly miss the times when the 3 of us rush to complete our lab report on the day of the experiment itself. Some of my friends think that it is a very "kiasu" behaviour, but I think it is just the way we handle and treat our work. We hate to backlog and leave our reports to the very last minute. Hence, I would say that it is definitely a blessing for me to have 2 lab mates who think alike.
Hmm... As we are doing out industrial attachment this semester, we no longer have the chance to do experiments together again, at least for the next six months. I am working at 3M now, and doing alot of experiments and lab work. As I am the only attachment student assigned to the lab, I carry out the complete the experiments mostly by myself. In times like these, I can't help but miss my lab partners. Most of the times I can't help but wish that they are around to give me ideas on how to carry out my test, on the structure of the report, what stuff to dump into the appendix and whose report we can refer to as reference.
Now, Ig is in Canada and Yong Sing is working in Akzo. Don't really have the chance to crap about soccer with them, chat about varsity life and complain to each other about the workload.
Just hope that they are doing well.
I am still a Man U fan,
Qing
After chatting with him on msn, I suddenly miss the times when the 3 of us rush to complete our lab report on the day of the experiment itself. Some of my friends think that it is a very "kiasu" behaviour, but I think it is just the way we handle and treat our work. We hate to backlog and leave our reports to the very last minute. Hence, I would say that it is definitely a blessing for me to have 2 lab mates who think alike.
Hmm... As we are doing out industrial attachment this semester, we no longer have the chance to do experiments together again, at least for the next six months. I am working at 3M now, and doing alot of experiments and lab work. As I am the only attachment student assigned to the lab, I carry out the complete the experiments mostly by myself. In times like these, I can't help but miss my lab partners. Most of the times I can't help but wish that they are around to give me ideas on how to carry out my test, on the structure of the report, what stuff to dump into the appendix and whose report we can refer to as reference.
Now, Ig is in Canada and Yong Sing is working in Akzo. Don't really have the chance to crap about soccer with them, chat about varsity life and complain to each other about the workload.
Just hope that they are doing well.
I am still a Man U fan,
Qing
Monday, July 04, 2005
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird...
One of the few artists whose presence and works have affected me is Eminem. In a positive or a negative way I am not sure, but I really like his songs.
I remembered the movie "8 Mile". The scene whereby the whole crowd responded to his rap really touched me. The amount of courage, confidence and talent that I see was so inspirational. It made me realise, that in order to become good in something, or to beat others, one have to win over oneself. To become a good handball/basketball/netball player, one have to overcome the mental weakness first, before one can really excel and improve. Not only in sports, but also in other areas, like work and relationships.
His songs, though not popular among my friends, always hit a note close to my heart. They tell me stories that are seldom heard in a safe and conservative place like Singapore. Guns, betrayal, drugs, AIDS, problem child, single-parent, divorce, and so many more. Sometimes I wonder whether those are stories of his life, before he got famous, and after he is famous. I remembered the first time I listened to his Slim Shady, I thought it was crap. But when I heard the song Kim, I felt really sad for the guy in the song. Since then I always pay attention to his lyrics, and now I appreciate his courage for bringing controversy into his music.
In some songs he expressed his love to his daughter, and he also expressed regret, for he is an artist, hence he could not really give her a normal childhood, but he really wanted to give her a childhood that he never really had. So, it made me wonder whether is it really so difficult to have the best of both worlds, whether is it really true that in order to achieve one thing, it is often at the expense of another, or in order to excel in work, there are some things that one have to forgo. Does it mean that in order to perform well in my IA, I have to sacrifice handball/basketball/netball/IHG?
In his songs he have mentioned before that he have to be responsible for what he writes as his songs have an influence on society, on the kids who listens to him like a preacher. Makes me ponder whether my actions have any influence on anybody. And yes, my actions do make an impact on someone. Not really sure if I should be flattered, but it has certainly brought me a certain amount of stress and guilt.
Are you the man who I think you are, Marshall?
I want a mockingbird,
Qing
I remembered the movie "8 Mile". The scene whereby the whole crowd responded to his rap really touched me. The amount of courage, confidence and talent that I see was so inspirational. It made me realise, that in order to become good in something, or to beat others, one have to win over oneself. To become a good handball/basketball/netball player, one have to overcome the mental weakness first, before one can really excel and improve. Not only in sports, but also in other areas, like work and relationships.
His songs, though not popular among my friends, always hit a note close to my heart. They tell me stories that are seldom heard in a safe and conservative place like Singapore. Guns, betrayal, drugs, AIDS, problem child, single-parent, divorce, and so many more. Sometimes I wonder whether those are stories of his life, before he got famous, and after he is famous. I remembered the first time I listened to his Slim Shady, I thought it was crap. But when I heard the song Kim, I felt really sad for the guy in the song. Since then I always pay attention to his lyrics, and now I appreciate his courage for bringing controversy into his music.
In some songs he expressed his love to his daughter, and he also expressed regret, for he is an artist, hence he could not really give her a normal childhood, but he really wanted to give her a childhood that he never really had. So, it made me wonder whether is it really so difficult to have the best of both worlds, whether is it really true that in order to achieve one thing, it is often at the expense of another, or in order to excel in work, there are some things that one have to forgo. Does it mean that in order to perform well in my IA, I have to sacrifice handball/basketball/netball/IHG?
In his songs he have mentioned before that he have to be responsible for what he writes as his songs have an influence on society, on the kids who listens to him like a preacher. Makes me ponder whether my actions have any influence on anybody. And yes, my actions do make an impact on someone. Not really sure if I should be flattered, but it has certainly brought me a certain amount of stress and guilt.
Are you the man who I think you are, Marshall?
I want a mockingbird,
Qing
Sunday, July 03, 2005
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