Recently...

Recently I have been spending lots of my time with friends. Playing basketball, watching movies eating dinner/supper and simple chatting are the things that we do together. When I was in Malaysia, they still accompanied me through my depressing moments despite the expensive phone calls and it being the lunar new year. They totally rock.

One of them is someone whom I have known for a long time. He understands my situation the most. We have much in common and and are so comfortable with each other that we imitate the way each other talk. Talking to him is easy and words always just pop right out of me without the slightest hesitation. In front of him I find myself often lacking the will to be strong in front of people, to put up a brave front so that they will never see the actual sorry state that I am in. He have seen me in my worst state and he actually once told me that I can put aside all my armour when I am with him. Whoa. Thank God for this friend.

Another friend is someone whom I have gotten to know better recently. He is gentle and kind. I find myself trusting him a hundred percent. Sometimes I think that I am overly reliant on him, as he really spends the time to chat with me the whole day sometimes. Regardless of what other people might say about him, I feel that he is one person whom I can trust to protect me. The sweetest thing he has ever said to me was that he would be my goalie, when I said that I feel like an untended goalpost. Steady. Thank God for sending me this friend.

The third friend is someone whom I have been very close to in the past, and though we are still close now, maybe it is no longer the same kind of feeling. He is always there and willing to listen. Although sometimes his advice is totally inapplicable, he is funny and always tries to make me laugh. I wish that he will be able to see and feel my sincerity in being friends with him. I thank God for letting our paths cross.

The last friend whom I want to mention is someone who has caught my attention (at least initially) with his tattoo. Its a pretty piece of art and I totally respect him as a person and as a man (taking into account his young age). He is very thoughtful and sweet and does the most unexpected things sometimes. He always say the wisest things when I least expect to hear it. Thank God I met him (this time under a different light and setting).

Well, because I have been spending time with this few friends (among many others), I feel that my road to recovery is not as bad as it could originally be. They totally rock.

Blessed,
Qing