Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Jealousy is ugly...

Hmm...

I am someone who gets jealous quite easily. When I get very jealous, normally I would feel very small and insignificant, then cry as a form of self-pity.

Even though after so many relationships, I still cannot seem to learn how to control my emotions and not to feel sour over little things. Maybe its because I feel insecure all the time, or maybe I don't have any confidence in myself at all... Maybe its precisely because of the many betrayals that I have experienced before that make me so suspecting all the time...

Every action that results from my jealousy makes me hate myself, as if I am behaving like a ten year old. But I can't help it... I need someone to share my woes with, so as to dilute the jealousy that I feel...

Jealous,
Qing

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